SGE: Behind the Scenes
Part 5: Feelings in the Final Stages
Welcome back to SGE Behind the Scenes! In this series, I dive into the experience of writing my first book, Soft Girl Era: Mindmaps to the Heart. We’re nearing the end of this series, but it is all backlogged HERE.
Today, I’m reflecting on the final stages of creating Soft Girl Era… the editing cocoon, the voice of imposter syndrome, and the CHOICE to put purpose over fear so that this book could carry out its mission.
We’ve talked a lot about what went into my debut book… The mindmaps, the guidance, the inspiration and personal motivations…every piece contributing to this whole that now can be accessed by anyone, anywhere in the world. But there was grief within this. A resistance to let her go, even though that was the intention all along.
I’m sure that’s natural for most creatives, and I wonder if this experience is amplified for independent artists. This pondering fueled the inspiration for my up and coming project Hippiness Is: The Collective on Mighty Networks. This space is DESIGNED to support independent projects through all stages of creation… Join Early using this link.
Staring at this nearly-finished dream come to life ironically made me question the validity of its very existence.
We all know what imposter syndrome is… Who the fuck am I to lead anyone to believe that I know anything about anything?! I chuckle now because time, dedication, and authentic action have proven to me that I’ve taken my seat at the table.
I only date my journals by year, so I can’t pinpoint exactly when this page poured out of me. What I do remember is DECIDING.
I certainly had the option to never release Soft Girl Era; I wasn’t bound by any mortal contract, just the one my Soul had signed before I came here. I fought back against the imposter syndrome by questioning who I would be if I didn’t release it… A lifetime of experience felt, buried, forgotten, unearthed and reshaped would all be for what...nothing? The fear of that VASTLY outweighs any criticism I may receive from the peanut gallery.
When I think about the potential Soft Girl Era has to TRULY REACH other women, my fears fall to the wayside. My heart swells with the possibility that another Soft Girl will find home in herself because of this work… and that’s been my purpose all along.
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The final installment of Soft Girl Era: Behind the Scenes will talk about Living the Message: How I continue to grow into this new season of my life with authenticity and intention.
Have questions? Drop them in the comments here! Soon, we’ll be expanding into the next “phase” of sharing SGE with the world!